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Friday, May 30, 2008
argh.. juz now one of my colleague ask me help shelther a client to his car, cos outside raining super heavily.. wah e client car super far... by the time i reach his car... my bottom half is totally drenched.... my right side was wet too.. when i reach office.. i can help *squeak squeak squeak* bcos my new shoe is totally soak in water...=.= i m wearing jeans lei.. my jeans wet like hell.. n u noe e feeling of wet jeans is veri irritating de lo...
so here i m sitting on my chair blogging, with bottom half totally wet... i gt clothes to change.. bt e clothes r for dancing.. imagine i wear baggy clothes n sweat pants and sit in e office do admin work.. wad will e client tink if they c me wearing tat sia =.= ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! pissed...
after work gg schl bcos of dance.. den my jeans wet my shoe wet... by e time i reach home it will stink lik hell!!!!! thank god tml is SAT.. if nt i realli wil
!#@#!%*&^*&^@%#^$#$%@#^%#...
ARGH..
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4:04 PM
was blog hopping ard.. den came across tricia blog.. den suddenly i was so envy abt her life (other den e part she was unhappy abt) envy tat her life seem so eventful!! lik she do hair modelling, she is part of mediacorp cos of hey gorgeous.. she is so enthu abt dance life... she n mikal sweet sweet go outing.. lik it makes me tink abt my life...
Lik i have been tinking for quite some time le.. lik wad exactly i wan to do... like i have list a few.. whether i wan to:
- further studies in biomedical
- further studies in pharmaceutical
- go for studies for tourism/ hospitality
- go for cert for marketing and comm management
- try to further and go for dancer route (be a choreographer/instructor)
- c whether can b background dancer (my ambition when young, dumb i noe)
- go try any work in mediacorp
- continue find admin/ office work
actually i all along likes e veri media industry.. like those veri in e limelight kind...like models (cannot b, cos i not pretty, no figure, gt scar =.=), actors (dun even dare to act, dunno what i tinking abt), dancer (tis one mayb, MAYB can).. i tink i dream alot sia...=.= anyway.. i dun mind working as those help actors carry ting, crowd control ( i saw tis job in mediacorp web).. i was tinking shud i go for it... bt currently my job.. i dunno how to hop out.. i have been working for almost one month.. and i realise admin can b quite boring.. dunno if tis is wad i wan.. cos i m sumone who loves challenges, new tings n stuff... bt i have been lik entrusted with alot of tings here... lik my name is registered under alot of government stuff under my company.. haix... i waiting for a ray of light to shine me e path...i m realli lost.. i dunno wad step to take nxt... REALLI LOST!!!!!! HELP!!!! please i realli need sum signs..
i m like forever lost n searching for signs =.= NO GOOD!!
Below r juz text to vent how i feel..if u realli bother to read..take ur time to read..
i used to tout it is possible to hav a gal n a guy to b best of buddies.. bt... i start to wonder too... tings happen.. n mind set changed... though tings have past... n i m supposed to b thr for u no matter how much u hurt me cos i m supposed to b e one...e fren u can count on..i guess i failed e moment i turn my back on u... e fear of getting hurt... i start to wonder m i realli a good fren? m i sum1 u can count on? if yes y did i turn my back on u... y did i leave u when i noe u r greatly dwn n hurt... aint reliable fren suppose to b e stupid one standing by u, supporting ur back even though u r e one in wrong? ensuring tat u wun fall too deep... i failed..i failed all... i guess i expect too much frm u tat i tout i will do it too.. is over.. n dun wish to tok abt it... dun nid to waste any more time to tel me hw much u wish e 2 of us to b like last time... cos it will nv b.. i m realli glad to c u turning better n moving on in life.. i was glad i was able to sms u lik normal request..bt tings will flash back even if i dun wish for it too.. i hope u r able to find a fren much better den me... n b happi n move on.. i will b a hi n bye fren with u, at times hav short convo.. tis is all i can do for e acc of e frenship we have...=D u will hav another circles of frens, n i will hav mine.. good luck in everyting u do... n take care.. i juz wan to type how i feel.. n i m glad i finally hav a stand.. a stand tat states "tings hav pass, willing to let it go, bt at e same time my spike will b up to protect myself in case...=) tings move on n i will nt tink abt it unless provoked =)" tats my stand!!EVELYN b strong in wadeva u do... n thx to those hu hav been concern..since tis hav been lying quite low profile... u will noe hu u r.. n i m realli glad tat u guys were protecting n worried abt me when tis case exist.. thx
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2:44 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
e story abt my shoe continues.... as i was abt to go hm ytd... my left shoe looks lik its gonna split.. so i try to drag my feet n faster walk... juz as i reach e gate.. E SHOE SPLIT!!!! den a guy was laughin behind..so sia suay!!!
c.... my shoe split lik crocodile opening mouth... btw to all hu tout i selling shoe... is my shoe spoil!!! LOL....veri poor ting lo.. i at one corner trying to glue n leave asap.. cos thr were client in my office.. so veri unglam lo... i drag my feet as if i injured =.=
anyway.. today is graduation day!! let e photo do e talking ba..
alot ppl oh~
my Daddy!!
my beloved parents!!
me, tin tin, shuai ge
me n coco (mellie)
FB graduads 2008!!
hehehe... nice nice... i still gt a few pics with ian.. shall upload nxt time.. i m sooo sry n sad tat i was not able to take pic wif my sec schl gang.. oh n i mux mention.. MARC IS SOO MAN IN UNIFORM!!! hahaha.. realli look mature in it sia.. gdgd... LOL..
n lao gong, yan clone... u all nv cum if nt can take alot photo =_(... nvm... head pain le...
barked at
9:11 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
ahhhh.. stupid shoes!!!! y m i blaming e shoe?? ok.. tis is wad happen..
I was arranging e catalogues in my office... den suddenly when i tip toe i was wondering "eh y my feet lik gt smth dangling?" i look dwn n guess wad i saw!!!! my shoe split open lik a crocodile opening its mouth!!! i was lik OMG!!!! den i look every whr for glue..bt i couldnt find.. so i was dragging my feet ard.. den one of my colleague saw (old n e nxt in line in status).. he saw me dragging my feet n i showed him my shoe..he started laughin n he took e UHU glue which they used for modeling to help me glue my shoe... he was super nice... he didnt cared abt his hand being dirty, he helped me glue n ask me to put e shoe outside to sun it awhile so tat e glue can stick well..so i did n left my shoe at e balcony n returned to my seat, hopping ard.. luckily my office nt big..n veri little ppl and all young one.. so they juz find me poor ting...den e colleague went to check on my shoe n brought back to me.. NICE RITE.. it was lunch time den was tinking "damn cannot go eat" bt my colleague say as long as i walk slowly is ok...i was doubting till i heard he used to b clobber... so shud b able to trust..hahhaa n i survived!!! tat was lik 12plus gg 1pm..
n now...my e other shoe..e left side lik oso wan open mouth le la.. damn!!! i dun wan to bother him to help me glue again.. veri pai seh one lei....n now lik wan to open dun wan open.. oso dunno how.. ltr how to go home sia =.= bt thank god sia.. i was supposed to go tanjong pagar today to submit some doc... bt my boss onli cum back tml, so tis doc hab to put on hold.. so i no nid go.. if nt i tink i will b crying in tanjong pagar, calling my bro to come save me sia... LOL..
den again..HOW TO GO HOME LTR??????ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(stay tuned to c if Evelyn survive home with the hungry shoe which is abt to open its mouth any time)
barked at
4:02 PM
lost in my inner world...
barked at
10:58 AM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
wooo.. i was surfing om the net for lyrics.. and i found an interesting one...
(Sometimes I feel like)
I want to run away
(Sometimes I feel like)
I've got to get away
(One day you will see)
Another side of me
(My life I command)
It's not the way that you planned
Leave me alone(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own(Out on my own)
Leave me alone
this was wad caught my eye..e lyrics seem sooo familiar..=x didnt noe Corrs have this song...
barked at
3:16 PM
i have to try to stop slacking in anyway.... ever since i work.. i have been slacking in practising dance.. NO EVELYN NO!!! i cannot slack... once i slack i will loss touch of it... n i dun wan to loss someting tat i gain after trying... so i muz b determine to prac even at hm... graduation ceremony is lik juz nxt week... stupid lao gong n yan not gg... even yi oso =.= nvm my gf n siok thr can le... hehe.. lik gonna "Officially officially graduated".. lik so sian.. cos means entering into the exact adult world.. whr i work my ass off to feed myself...everytings is abt money now..MONEY for food (dad not giving me allowance any more=.=)MONEY for transportMONEY for phone billsMONEY for returning my dad the debts i owe him (taiwan trip and handphone)MONEY for shopping/ own leisureMONEY for my dance courseargh...everyting oso money...=.= sian... so hav to guai guai work... bt now oso tinking if i shud look for some other job after my probation for someting tat has higher pay... or to work as long as possible to save money for further studies.. honestly speaking i dun realli noe wad exactly i wan.. is secretary and admin realli wad i wan? do i still love science? do i still wan to b part of pharmaceutical? honestly speaking.. no idea.. wad i wan now is to gain experience in all sot of job scope... even awhile oso can.. at least i can den go into someting with a experience resume.. abit nonsense i noe... bt tat is for now... how i wish i can get diploma in dance.. bt doubt my parents wan me to like go study for it...nvm...juz hav to buck up as i m no longer seen as a child..grow up ba evelyn!!
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2:53 PM
Friday, May 09, 2008
i m stuck here.. in my new office.. new workplace... new colleagues...i m clueless... i have been here since 8.30am..n i m still blur in wad i m suppose to do... i dun hav a proper hand over yet... n i m hanging in mid air trying to figure out wad step nxt... yes i noe i m suppose to work independently... but on e 1st day???? wad e hell.. summore e boss bomb me tings early in e morning, expecting me to rmb everyting at once =.= how to...summore i m currently half dead.. thr seems to b a fever-bomb inside me.. bt it still nv explode.. making me super uncomfortable.. summore i keep tearing... it is sooo irritating....e office is super quiet la...even 1 of e colleague hu worked 6mths said she cudnt stand e quietness..is lik str 8hrs nt tokin =.= wth.. e only sound in the office is 1)radio 2)clicking of mouse 3)my typing 4)fax/printer machine 5)once in a blue moon phone calls(which i hav to attend to =.=)..seriously no one toks... onli once in awhile... argh.. i m lik dozing off cos i m freaking tired bcos of e stupid bomb tat dun explode =.=
how i wish i have a bed rite in front of me.... ltr still gt lyrical...=_( i wan to rest...bt i cant pon tat one lei... nt enuff time le ma.. sob... lik past few days i hav been half dead.. nt able to go dance was already killing me... though ytd i die die oso drag myself to popping class... almost died thr though =x luckily in time go home pop panadol...if nt today sure cannot cum work...
tink i better nt slack any more... cos i post tis to act lik i veri bz =x with all e typing..
(i juz received sum office call n i anyhow make decision..juz nice office soo quiet..damn...hope i did sumting rite=x)
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2:34 PM
