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Friday, May 30, 2008
was blog hopping ard.. den came across tricia blog.. den suddenly i was so envy abt her life (other den e part she was unhappy abt) envy tat her life seem so eventful!! lik she do hair modelling, she is part of mediacorp cos of hey gorgeous.. she is so enthu abt dance life... she n mikal sweet sweet go outing.. lik it makes me tink abt my life...
Lik i have been tinking for quite some time le.. lik wad exactly i wan to do... like i have list a few.. whether i wan to:
- further studies in biomedical
- further studies in pharmaceutical
- go for studies for tourism/ hospitality
- go for cert for marketing and comm management
- try to further and go for dancer route (be a choreographer/instructor)
- c whether can b background dancer (my ambition when young, dumb i noe)
- go try any work in mediacorp
- continue find admin/ office work
actually i all along likes e veri media industry.. like those veri in e limelight kind...like models (cannot b, cos i not pretty, no figure, gt scar =.=), actors (dun even dare to act, dunno what i tinking abt), dancer (tis one mayb, MAYB can).. i tink i dream alot sia...=.= anyway.. i dun mind working as those help actors carry ting, crowd control ( i saw tis job in mediacorp web).. i was tinking shud i go for it... bt currently my job.. i dunno how to hop out.. i have been working for almost one month.. and i realise admin can b quite boring.. dunno if tis is wad i wan.. cos i m sumone who loves challenges, new tings n stuff... bt i have been lik entrusted with alot of tings here... lik my name is registered under alot of government stuff under my company.. haix... i waiting for a ray of light to shine me e path...i m realli lost.. i dunno wad step to take nxt... REALLI LOST!!!!!! HELP!!!! please i realli need sum signs..
i m like forever lost n searching for signs =.= NO GOOD!!
Below r juz text to vent how i feel..if u realli bother to read..take ur time to read..
i used to tout it is possible to hav a gal n a guy to b best of buddies.. bt... i start to wonder too... tings happen.. n mind set changed... though tings have past... n i m supposed to b thr for u no matter how much u hurt me cos i m supposed to b e one...e fren u can count on..i guess i failed e moment i turn my back on u... e fear of getting hurt... i start to wonder m i realli a good fren? m i sum1 u can count on? if yes y did i turn my back on u... y did i leave u when i noe u r greatly dwn n hurt... aint reliable fren suppose to b e stupid one standing by u, supporting ur back even though u r e one in wrong? ensuring tat u wun fall too deep... i failed..i failed all... i guess i expect too much frm u tat i tout i will do it too.. is over.. n dun wish to tok abt it... dun nid to waste any more time to tel me hw much u wish e 2 of us to b like last time... cos it will nv b.. i m realli glad to c u turning better n moving on in life.. i was glad i was able to sms u lik normal request..bt tings will flash back even if i dun wish for it too.. i hope u r able to find a fren much better den me... n b happi n move on.. i will b a hi n bye fren with u, at times hav short convo.. tis is all i can do for e acc of e frenship we have...=D u will hav another circles of frens, n i will hav mine.. good luck in everyting u do... n take care.. i juz wan to type how i feel.. n i m glad i finally hav a stand.. a stand tat states "tings hav pass, willing to let it go, bt at e same time my spike will b up to protect myself in case...=) tings move on n i will nt tink abt it unless provoked =)" tats my stand!!EVELYN b strong in wadeva u do... n thx to those hu hav been concern..since tis hav been lying quite low profile... u will noe hu u r.. n i m realli glad tat u guys were protecting n worried abt me when tis case exist.. thx
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