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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

yeah~~ last day of work... dunno to feel happi or sad.. happi is tat i no longer need to wake up soooo early in e morning... no need to c my tat boss hu treat me hot n cold =.= still cant 4get e way he tok to me when i ask he wad to write on a card =.= sad is tat i no longer able to hear stories from uncle patrick n big bro andrew =_(.. n stupid big bro always making me feel sad when is nearing e last day of work.. cos he will always say tis.."da jie.. sian la... dun study la..." he say he will say tat every day... until i m gone.. hahha.. so tis morning he came in early saw me n look at e date.. n gave me a veri sad look =_(

actually my company has veri nice ppl..n my boss always fly to other country.. so actually is can stay de.. juz tat lookin at my pay n all.. i feel tat i cant stay here for long... i m still young n i cant waste my time liddat... hopefully i can realli go study... though exactly wad i dunno... i juz take it as it comes.. since my life is always filled with unexpected changes... until i m used to it =)

have been falling sick lately.. kept having fever... currently kept coughing n feeling breathless..i hope tis does nt persist any further.. if nt it will definitely affect my performance =( n i do not wan to withdraw frm funka due to health.. i do not wan to sit thr n watch ppl dance when i was suppose to b thr dancing... i m gonna b stubborn n fight tis stupid viruses ard me or within me!! HMPH...

anyway.. lets tok abt my week.. heh.. last week was xmas week..so..

23rd Dec - my cousin Brad bdae..so went to his hse for celebration.. n finally e MIA jerome came... den had gift exchange..nt as interesting as last time le.. dunno y tis time e festive mood seem to die dwn.. last time seem so much fun =( oh.. n my youngest miah is soooo cute.. he saw e present my mum had for him n he held it soo tight tat even when his father offer to open for him, he juz kept saying no... damn cute... cant stop laughin... =)

xmas eve - went out with bi n a few grandjuniors..watched yes man.. den we ton outside... played cards n all...

xmas - meet up with eunice, mei shi, joey, leron n bi.. had sushi.. had fun chatting with them too.. den meet up with peng they all.. wanted to watch bedtime stories with them.. bt bcos i gt work e next day.. so onli accompany them awhile den headed back home..sry bi for spoiling e fun again... =(

Fri - meet up with lala n mei mei.. other den accompanying mei mei , was suppose to get smth... bt in e end i drop tat idea n went dinner with them.. n lala got me n mei mei a bigger funshine n brave-heart!!! thx lala =D muacks.. n u have a BIGGER clover..hehehehe...

Sat - had prac frm 11-5pm.. wah..was soak with sweat.. had fun during e prac..HARSHBROWN!!!!!! LOL inside joke... =) oh n min hui came!! wahahah...fun yea =)den went hm bathe.. n i knock out for awhile.. cos i was already feeling breathless tat morning.. n e prac realli drained my energy... den i woke up n beg my bro to send me to thomson plaza to get stuff for e bbq gathering with my sec schl frens.. n my bro realli was nice to fetch me thr =) sweet bro.. den went for e gathering.. missed all of them soo much.. =D n thx tristan for sending me hm!!!!!=)

Sun - was suppose to go to bi hse.. bt i was realli feeling super unwell.. kept coughing.. i was havin slight fever.. bt still hav to drag my feet n go for my grandma bdae celebration.. my australia cousins were back.. so took a few photos with them.. i was bored so played ds..spot e difference.. n e kids love it n played with me.. =) killed time u noe...my grandma bdae cake was damn nice.. tiger..in 3D.. =) i was feeling damn cold tat day.. kept shivering...n one of my cousin happen to have fever too.. den m mum pass me a shawl.. den when taking photo i was with e shawl n i got scolded =.= cos they were saying is ugly n e color nt gd.. i m lik=.= kaoz... i m feeling freakin cold k.. n is grey.. nt black ma =.= c la.. made me go hm n fever gt worsen =.=

yea... tats all LOL... =)

sry bi.. tis feel days i hav been a spoilt spot.. i keep falling sick.. kept wanting to go home when u startin to hav fun.. 4eva nt able to go ur hse.. sry i realli didnt mean it.. all tis virus n all is killing me.. realli killing me.. sry =_(

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5:20 AM

Monday, December 22, 2008

hahhaah.. after my reflection post........i shall post e recent events!!!! LOL...

Fri - had a Post Production Celebration!!! was fun... thr were lik finger foods..ppl taking photos...den thr was lik a award ceremony.. was given e "Best Dancer - Boogaloo (Popping)".. seriously i tink every1 in Boog is best!!! =) n i love boo-ga-loo!!! honoured to get tat.. oh btw those hu won an award will hav to draw lots n spoof on a genre.. n i gt....... WHINEY/SPOOF!!!!!! lol.. though i show lik "WAH" face.. bt actually i quite glad i kena tat.. cos at least i gt bite abit b4!!! lol.. bt nuh nuh didnt get to c i spoof his spoof...LOL...is lik damn funni.. i m spoofing a spoof...hw dope is tat.. LOL den thr was games.. i was abit dead..cos i still in recovering mode frm my fever.. n i was shivering at tat stage...so =(

Sat - went to find daddy mummy in e morning... den i went off to oschl for popping class by poppin onion (i tink is liddat spell).. it was dope.. cos is veri different feel.. i like.. LOL den went back to find my daddy n mummy... oh. n i was sad tat i didnt manage to find a jacket for myself due to e size...sob...anyway...my daddy sent me to ngee ann for e danzation concert... it was dope..i love e ann's choreo.. as in tat segment made me wanna cry.. bt i held back my tears.. it was veri emotional.. cos its abt a father's love, n wanting to dance a last dance with e dad bt e dad is gone.. i had a lot of feelings.. cos sumhw i always stick to my dad.... though i stick to my mum too la.. bt frm young i m sticky to my parents.. n my mum say me n my dad seem to b able to link heart to heart.. so when i watch tat segment it made me so wanna hug my dad... =_( anyway.. great show.. den went for supper!! with eunice n e rest at hong kong cafe... den i went to bi hse...

Sun - went to malaysia with bi family....bi's mummy realli dote on me.. she noes i lik milo..she made milo for me.. den she insist on me getting sumting i wan to eat or drink..so juz bcos i said to bi's bro tat famous amos is nice.. bi's mummy buy for me...so sweet rite =) she always pamper me sia..hehehe...

so tats will my fri-sun.. hahhaa today gonna go for funka prac.. den tml i m having a gift exchange with my relatives!! sry to my funka peeps tat i cant go prac today...sry =(

signing off -happily eating log cake...*beams*

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6:28 AM

=] was reading nuh nuh's blog, den thr was tis post whr he touched on lik wad happen tis yr n smth lik a reflection on tis yr.. den i start to tink abt wad happen to me tis veri yr.. n i realise....... tis yr was a veri HAPPENING yr.. y? cos my life went lik a roller coaster.. my emotions was ups n dwns with all e tings tat happen to me.. n i tell u nw tat i "looking back in wad i been thru~~~~(singing e golden days tune)" is ALOT k...

e 1st big hu-ha.. was e TAIWAN trip.. it was e 1st time i went to taiwan.. i get to noe taiwan frens, korea dancers, japan dancers n even more!!! if u tink is juz another nice holiday trip den u r entirely wrong!! it was e 1st HUGE quarrel i had with keat.. n i do mean huge!!! bt i tink is gd tat tat happen cos it brought our relationship to e nxt lvl =) den was another big challenge.. e frenship part... n i too learn frm it.. cos it made me tink thru every single ting abt frens... n i m sure both me n bang noe veri well we wan tis frenship to stay..

juz tat trip gave me emotions of: excited, happy, anger, confused, "broke dwn stage", numb..

i 1st time enter a stage of "leave me alone"... n den i slowly picked myself up to fly again =) n it all thx to frens n family support ard me =)

den nxt was gg thru LIME competition with my dear MACKIES!!! it made me noe lala more.. n i bcame her funshine n she bcame sum1 i will turn to.. thx LALA aka CLover!! it was oso e 1st competition i joined with DEAR SHAF-FEE!!! it was a great experience for me =)

tis yr was e 1st time i tried all e yes933 contest.. i won passes to Elva's private session with fans, i won High School Musical 3 Prom Makeover (i went with sabby n i won 2nd), i won tickets to Kpop Night (a night i can nv 4get!! cos i went with RAIN n my dearest MEIMEI!! had fun)...

had a wonderful bdae tis yr with my =) fb mates... altough it wasnt lik any big big ting.. it was juz a small celebration held at hulala hse..bt bcos of e ppl hu were thr.. it made it even more memorable =D n my bi surprise me for once!!!! hah

e nxt biggest ting was FB PRODUCTION!!!! it was e 1st production!!!! i was part of e committee.. was e production assistant or secretary... was honoured to b place in tat position.. though seriously it wasnt ezy (personally la)... bt i was glad i was of help.. again i learnt super super alot.. bcos tis creates more bonds with others, it brings all FB of different generation n batches tgt.. n thus makin us able to noe hw each other works n makes us CLOSER~~~

though during tat period thr was a small prob (ok.. mayb nt small.. bt ook.....4get it =) ) bt i hav come to my senses!!!!! my dear gal.. i will still b ur earth... if thr r moment of awkward-ness pardon me... i m back to hu u noe.. n i will always b tat gal u cried to =)

so overalll 2008 gave me alot of 1st times...

it made me learnt alot..
it gave me more frens..
it gave me courage..
it made me mature in tinking (or so i assume)

haha.. anyway.. i juz wanna thank 2008 for giving a little spice in my life.. n i m glad i had tis "roller coaster ride" if nt i will nt b able to experience n learn frm it =)

thanks to all hu were thr for me, thanks to my family (lik duh)...thanks to bi =D

wad will 2009 install for me?????????????????? =D

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4:55 AM

Friday, December 19, 2008

yea~ e korean extreme dance comedy!!!!! waahahahahaha... super excited!!! cos my dad is getting e tix to watch!!! n luck bi, my dad oso getting for him!!!! wahahahahahahahaha... n summore we gonna get e good seat!!! cos my dear bro gt lobang!!! hahahahahahaahahah... ok i m gg crazy le.. i dunno y i soo excited oso.. mayb bcos is my 1st time watchin dance concert (excluding tpde, sp those la.oschl) or mayb i m excited bcos they r KOREANS!!!! LOL..

tis was wad happen... i was in my dad room watching tv....den m dad suddenly call for me.. tinking wad cud it b.. i went out.. den he asked "wan watch break out?" n i was like "huh?!?" pardon me i was abit slpy mode cos wasnt feeling gd... went i come to senses den i realise.. is e dance one!!! lOL... super high..cos my dad damn on... wahahahaha.... cant wait cant wait... i heard previously was e ballerina n bboy de.. i missed tat n ppl were saying it was dope... so it made me even more excited to watch breakout...heheh..DOPE DADDy!!!

ok.. as for my previous emo post.. i wan to shout out to all ppl hu were concern... thx!!!!! realli touched!!! i gonna juz move on n c wad happen nxt.. nt gonna tink much, nt gonna care or listen much, nt gonna tok much abt it too.. i shall take as it comes =) tis is me!!!! heh so thx to meimei, clover, salakio, jin sis, bi (thx for hugging me when u noe i m dwn), my kakkak zila, nuh nuh, abang, hope i nv miss any1 out... =)

n shaf fee~~~ i suddenly miss u so =_(

N CHIONG AH for all funka grp.. esp mine =) we can do it.. although combi abit weird ah.. bt each of us gt diff forte!!!! n we combine we BOOM e stage yea =)

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6:08 AM

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

i cant explain..hw i feel~~~

yes..i seriously cant explain... i broke dwn ytd when tokin to sharon... cos i m tinking y m i gg thru tis again... tings r nt done directly to hurt me... is e tings tat accumulate n when i start to tink back (when i realli dun wish to tink back) tings juz came pouring out...

do i fail as a fren?

m i realli nt e cut for fren?

is it bcos i m stupid?

is my method of being a fren wrong?

i seriously do not noe....whenever i protect them, they will still sneak away n get hurt.. n when they get hurt they turn to me n give me a "evelyn help" look... i dunno..i seriously dunno.. i m sensative.. juz tat u cant c it.. is tearing within me.. it is.. i m juz trying to keep my cool...

damn.. u r starting to make me curl into a ball n wondering will my nxt close fren do e same ting n hurt me again.. is nt once is twice tat is happening...y juz when i tout i will hav sum1 close as a fren tings juz happen... n ur tat sms hurt me...seriously hurt...

clover, mei mei, salakio, eunikio... i onli left u guys to keep me believing tat thr r frens hu will not hurt me at all... pls keep me believing....

*i dunno whr to start, trapped in e dark*

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4:45 AM

=) yes... production is over....hav mixed feeling... is happi tat e hectic n bz times r over... bt at e same time lik veri empty... ytd i went back to schl to return stuff to SA n i felt so lonely suddenly.. cos i was alone at blk e at 4 plus 0.0 owell...lets prepare m touts n thank you speech again..=)

to my poppers: thx for being part of it... n thx for cooperating... those sumtimes i will sian cos we veri relac ah... bt eventually i feel we did a gd job =) *clap clap* thx to my boog ppl... thx lim kah kah for teachin me alot n trusting me to help him handle stuff..thx michael for trying hard to keep up with us.. thx yz for his patience n rushing dwn after schl..thx nora for always helping me at e side when she c me stress... thx joey for always coming to every prac n she seem to b one of e reason i happily go for boog prac=D thx christie for all e hard work gal.. i noe is tings were nt ez for u...thx nic ho for trying to lessen my load here n thr =)

to my emo peeps: it was hard for this grp of ppl to come tgt cos practically 50% of e ppl r working adults... is nt ez for our choreographer cum producer AH JIN JIN to handle tings.. n i seriously take my hats off him.. he always try to keep his cool..tried nt to blow his temper.. n i seriously respect him.. i m proud to b in tis segment!!! (i m oso proud of e other segment la) dunno y m tear duct spoil when ah jin jin gave e touching speech n i still can remain cool =.= during 2nd day i saw e 10 lost ppl, sum of them were sobbing loudly during golden days.. it makes me feel sad bt again my tear duct spoil..i remained cool again =.=

to my house kahkis: i was e lousiest in this grp.. bt the nv gave up on me.. every single one of them did their best to teach me n make me catch up.. however i was damn disappointed with myself on e 2nd day as i feel tat i hav let all of u dwn =( owell.. i shall nt carry on tat if nt i emo again.. thx uncle kenny!!! realli sad tat u were dwn with chicken pox... during prac u always help me in wadever ways.. whenever u c me alone trying hard to learn e dive n all, u will try all sort of method to let me understand hw to do it...realli realli thank u!!!! n ur vid cam is still with me!!! thx jin wen!! ur fall on e 2nd day make me laugh n relax abit.. though i still screwed up for e 2nd part =.= thx uncle!!! u were always patient with me... teaching me slowly.. nv once u blame me or say me stupid... thx sexy dolphin.. u constantly let me noe wad i did wrong in a ultra nice way (making me feel even sad cos u r super nice when telling me...=( ) thx MEI MEI!!! it was u kept me gg in house..i seriously wanted to gave up at times cos i feel i sux in house i realli do.. i felt demoralise n all.. bt bcos of u, bcos i realli wan to dance e same dance as u... i kept it on.. so thx..thx for all house peeps.. though onli 5 of us.. bt i realli had fun for every prac.. =D

last bt nt least... thx to AH JIN JIN, MEI MEI, RACHIEE!!!! it was them hu hold everyting tgt and kept tis production moving... i noe hw hard it is cos i seriously noe all e backstage stuff n e behind e scene tings tat were gg on..thx!!!! nt 4getting leron too!!!! thx gal =D

owell.. i m done with my thankewing speech..LOL sry if i left out any1 bt u do nt at e bottom of my heart i do appreciate wadever u do rite.. cos if i name every single one tis post wun b onli tis long =D hahaha..thx

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4:35 AM